I've now officially been in Romania for one week. It has been an amazing and life changing week. I've learned so much since I've been here. It's definitely been hard and it has brought me out of my comfort zone. At first I didn't want to come out of my comfort zone and "go in deep" but I've realized that the times when I am insecure and vulnerable are when I really experience God and change in my life. Those uncomfortable situations I've been thrown into are the times when I feel closest to God. I pray now that God will continue to pull me out of my comfort zone so that I can continue to grow and rely on Him.
Yesterday my team had a time of worship. During that time God revealed to me some distractions that had been holding me back from "going in deep." I surrendered those distractions over to God and at that moment, my heart and desires changed. God put boldness in my heart when I surrendered. I've done things these past few days that I never would have dreamed of doing before this trip.
God is working here. I see it not only in my life but also in the lives of my team members. I came on this trip expecting to change people's lives… I didn't realize how much God would change my life.
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthian 12:9-10