A Guarded Heart…
"Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart." Proverbs 3:3
I left for this trip ten days ago with a very guarded heart. I spent last summer in the Dominican Republic ministering to a group of kids. We spent a week there loving those kids so much that by the end I cried when we had to say goodbye. When I got home I was so hurt and I missed them so much. I didn't want to go through that again this year here in Romania especially knowing that I would be with the same kids this year for not only a week but a month!
Since being here we have went into other villages and played with, loved on, and just minister to the kids here. I didn't allow myself to form a bond with them and I wouldn't allow myself to fall in love with any of the kids due to the fear that my heart would be broken when we had to leave. During quiet time after we had been here about a week, I realized that I was guarding my heart so that I wouldn't fall in love with not only the kids but the country. I realized that if I continued on with a completely guarded heart than I wouldn't get out of this trip what God wants me to get out of this trip. Now that I have realized this and have let the guard over my heart down it is refreshing to know that I don't have to worry about guarding my heart and am able to go all out with loving the kids here.
One of our ministries was getting to take a bus of kids from one of the local orphanages to the zoo. When we took the orphans to the zoo I was able to fall in love with them and show the love of God to them without the fear that my heart would be broken or that I would fall in love with them and that it would hurt when we have to go. Through this God has taught me that I am able to trust Him with my heart and that the reason I am here is to love on these kids and form bonds with these kids and that I don't need to guard my heart because God is protecting it. I am able to fully give my heart away to the gypsies here in Romania.
I know what you mean about guarding your heart but you can no more keep those children out of your heart than I could keep you out of mine.
The love of God naturally pours out of you. Love on those children every day and let them love on you.
I am so proud of you for stepping out on this trip and as always this will change your life.
Miss you and Love you.
Mom G.
KELS!!!!!!!!!
This blog is inspiring. I love you, im so proud of you for stepping up and stepping out. I cannot wait to pick you up and chat with you about all He is and will be doing. Love you incredibly. 😀
-chelsea